彩虹艳尽半边天

 在没看这部电影之前，我听过堕胎，家暴，艾滋病，强奸......但是仅限于听听而已。这部电影带我走进一个我无比陌生的世界，它让我知道，原来在世界的另一端有一群女人是这样活着的。一部电影最成功之处不仅仅是演员的卖力演出，故事情节的紧扣并且出其不意，恰到好处的配乐、旁白，更是让观众看完后，觉得像被什么触动了，久久说不出话来。而《彩虹艳尽半边天》的确是一部看完让你有很多感触的电影。
   这部电影是由七个有色女人的故事组成的，她们都是生活在美国的colored girls，默默地承受着生活给她们的考验。她们来自社会不同角色，有滥交的酒吧女，有事业有成的女强人，有对热爱舞蹈的艺术女，有前途光明的女学生......但是她们又都有一个共同点，她们都是一群伤痕累累的女人，甚至有些想过自杀的，但是最终她们依偎在一起，以坚韧的意志活下来。
至今一提到这部电影，我仍清晰地听到自己那一声——“不要！”当crystal那酗酒“老公”拿俩个天真的小孩要挟她得正式跟他结婚的时候，我突然有这样的念头，编剧你行行好吧，千万要保住crystal的孩子啊。然而，crystal还是阻止不了他，他还是把俩个小孩活生生地从五楼摔下去。其实，按理说crystal早就应该离开一直失业在家酗酒的“老公”了，之所以一直不跟他登记结婚，其实crystal自己也明白，不能跟这个喝酒就打自己和小孩的人过一辈子。但是，她却仍放不下这个她从十几岁就深爱的男人，妄想着有天他不会发酒疯的，憧憬那天要是到来，就跟他结婚。所以，让crystal更生不如死的是，她是那么清楚她要为孩子的死负重大责任。某种程度我认为女人一定得有自己的底线，超越这条底线，无论多不舍，还是得割舍。生活，会在割舍后更明媚的。
我不知道编写电影和电视剧的人是不是都喜欢把最美好的东西，在你面前摔破。Yasmine是一个对舞蹈很热爱的女人，你能够在她身上闻到向日葵的气息。她，烂漫，心里和身体装的满满是舞蹈；无私，自己掏钱开舞蹈学校免费交学生舞蹈；优雅，曼妙的身段加高雅的品味。但是这样一个捧在手心都怕碎的女人，对爱情抱着最纯真的想法的女人，只想为约会过一次的新交男友在家里煮一顿晚餐，他却给她带来永远无法痊愈的烙痕。被强奸后的Yasmine很坚强地向警方求救，当中她对警察的那段独白让我颇为震撼，“Lock the door behind you,and we are left with the scars.Being betrayed by men who know us,and expect like the stranger we always thought was coming that we will submit...”后来的Yasmine还有跳舞，只是她的舞蹈里多了一份怨愤与坚强。
Nyla最终还是在那个没经过消毒的肮脏小房间里，在那喝得醉醺醺的“女医生”的手下堕了胎。女强人Joanna居然被她的男同性恋老公传染艾滋病。很多阴霾压在她们身上，但是，她们却还是相信不远方有太阳。
彩虹活在每个女性的心里，支撑她们走过那些艰辛的岁月。我们不知道下一秒会发生什么事，我们只知道生活还在继续，活着就能穿越所有困苦。

    Sing a righteous gospel. Let her be born.
    Let her be born and handled warmly.

    想当年，看到一部片子里全是黑人面孔，我会直接删掉。
  现在确实更包容，更有耐心了。
  看她们的生活，不管是华丽的、卑微的、忙碌的、悠闲的，难以避免，在人生的某个时候，无依无靠、内心孤独的感觉都会袭面而来。

  语言很美。
  I realized I was missing something. Something promised, something so important. A laying of of hands, fingers near my forehead, strong, cool, moving, making me whole, sense, pure.
   I was missing something. Something promised, something free. I know about laying on bodies, laying out a man, and bringing him all of my fleshy self, and some of my pleasure being taken, full, eager, wet, like I get sometimes. A laying on of hands, the holiness of myself released.
   It was too much. I fell into numbness. Until the only tree I could see picked me up into her branches, held me in the breeze, made me dawn dew that chill at daybreak. The sum wrapped me up, swinging rose light everywhere. And the sky laid over me, like a million men. I was cold. I was burning up. I found God in myself, and I loved her fiercely.

   唤醒女性的自我意识。

看这部电影的时候，我脑海里跑出了《真爱》，《紫色》，《撞车》。。。。很多的黑人电影。只是觉得这部更加细腻。似乎黑人的生活都是那么不幸，所以要一个释放的点，来让我们看得更清楚。其实每个人的生活都或多或少充满艰辛，与不公。就让我们对过去，对现在说声sorry，然后和你身边的人紧紧依偎在一起，迎接明天。这是部好电影。

for colored girls who have considered suicide/when the rainbow is enuf Quotes (showing 1-9 of 9)

1
“one thing I don’t need
is any more apologies
i got sorry greetin me at my front door
you can keep yrs
i don’t know what to do wit em
they don’t open doors
or bring the sun back
they don’t make me happy
or get a mornin paper
didn’t nobody stop usin my tears to wash cars
cuz a sorry.”
― Ntozake Shange, for colored girls who have considered
suicide/when the rainbow is enuf

2
“without any assistance or guidance from you
i have loved you assiduously for 8 months 2 wks & a day
i have been stood up four times
i've left 7 packages on yr doorstep
forty poems 2 plants & 3 handmade notecards i left
town so i cd send to you have been no help to me
on my job
you call at 3:00 in the mornin on weekdays
so i cd drive 27 1/2 miles cross the bay before i go to work
charmin charmin
but you are of no assistance
i want you to know
this waz an experiment
to see how selifsh i cd be
if i wd really carry on to snare a possible lover
if i waz capable of debasin my self for the love of another
if i cd stand not being wanted
when i wanted to be wanted
& i cannot
so
with no further assistance & no guidance from you
i am endin this affair
this note is attached to a plant
i've been waterin since the day i met you
you may water it
yr damn self”
― Ntozake Shange, for colored girls who have considered suicide/when the rainbow is enuf

3
“i usedta live in the world
really be in the world
free & sweet talkin
good mornin & thank-you & nice day
uh huh
i cant now
i cant be nice to nobody
nice is such a rip-off
regular beauty & a smile in the street
is just a set-up”
― Ntozake Shange, for colored girls who have considered suicide/when the rainbow is enuf

4
“somebody/ anybody
sing a black girl's song
bring her out
to know herself
to know you
but sing her rhythms
carin/ struggle/ hard times
sing her song of life
she's been dead so long
closed in silence so long
she doesn't know the sound
of her own voice
her infinite beauty
she's half-notes scattered
without rhythm/ no tune
sing her sighs
sing the song of her possibilities
sing a righteous gospel
let her be born
let her be born
& handled warmly.”
― Ntozake Shange, for colored girls who have considered suicide/when the rainbow is enuf

5
“Ever since I realized there waz someone callt/
a colored girl an evil woman a bitch or a nag/
i been tryin not to be that & leave bitterness/
in somebody else's cup...”
― Ntozake Shange, for colored girls who have considered suicide/when the rainbow is enuf


6
“my spirit is too ancient to understand the separation of soul & gender”
― Ntozake Shange, for colored girls who have considered suicide/when the rainbow is enuf

7
“And this is for Colored girls who have considered suicide, but are moving to the ends of their own rainbows.”
― Ntozake Shange, for colored girls who have considered suicide/when the rainbow is enuf

8
“i am really colored & really sad sometimes & you hurt me
more than i ever danced outta/ i am ready to die like a lily in the
desert/ & i cdnt let you in on it cuz i didnt know/ here
is what i have/ poems/ big thighs/ lil tits/ &
so much love/ will you take it from me this one time/
please this is for you”
― Ntozake Shange, for colored girls who have considered suicide/when the rainbow is enuf

9
“i loved you on purpose
i was open on purpose
i still crave vulnerability & close talk
& i'm not even sorry bout you bein sorry
you can carry all the guilt & grime ya wanna
just dont give it to me
i cant use another sorry
next time
you should admit
you're mean/ low-down/ triflin/ & no count straight out
steada bein sorry alla the time
enjoy bein yrself”
― Ntozake Shange, for colored girls who have considered suicide/when the rainbow is enuf



（因为电影改编自戏剧 所以找了写原文的部分诗 贴出来）